FAITHFUL FOREVER - PART II

CHAPTER 1 – STEPS TO RECONCILIATION

Sir Kevin and Lady Felicity decided, after leaving Castle Rosenberg and Kevin’s outraged mother, to return to Lord Franz and Lady Angelica’s estate until they decided what to do next. They traveled with the knight’s faithful squire John Antony, the little maiden Amy Margarite who had been Felicity’s helper in caring for her charge, and a few other loyal servants who wished to remain with their master after seeing him so mistreated by his mother. 

Despite the cruelty they had endured, this group was a rather joyful one. To the eyes of one who is not Catholic, this may seem quite an oddity, but those who serve the true God know right well that, “Whatever shall befall the just man it shall not make him sad.” (Proverbs 12:21) And truly should it be said that this little congregation was composed of good, noble and just people.

As they traveled along the road Felicity came up with an idea of how Kevin and his mother might be reconciled, and was anxious to mention it to him as soon as possible.

“Franz! I have just had an idea of how you might be able to make up with you mother!” she exclaimed.

“Really?” he asked, and teasingly added. “What great inspiration has just struck thy brain?”

She laughed and replied, “I just now remembered hearing my mother speak of going to school with thy mother when they were little girls. Perhaps if we both took ourselves to my home, she would kindly write to your mother and explain the situation and bring about peace between you both!”

“That IS a brilliant idea, Felicity!” he asserted. “I did not know that our mother’s knew each other!”

“Indeed, I had forgotten all about it, though I had heard my mother mention your mother’s name several times in the past, but suddenly as we were traveling two and four added together in my head and made six!” she burst out excitedly.

“Well, then!” responded Kevin joyfully “Let us not go to Franz’ place, but rather to thy home, and see what sort of reunion we can bring about!”

So it was that the little party turned its way in a different direction, though not too far from its place of destination.

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When Kevin and Felicity arrived in the town near her parent’s citadel, they were not prepared in the slightest for the reception that received them. Lady Pamela had received a letter from her friend Lady Gertrude that her daughter had eloped with her son Kevin. As a result of this, Lady Pamela had it announced through the whole territory that her daughter was no longer to be accepted as part of the family, that she was disinherited, and that if she ever returned to the area that she was to be exiled immediately. Try as he might Lord Harold could not convince his wife that there might be some mistake and that it might be better for her to wait to pronounce such a judgment upon their daughter so quickly.

As they entered the village no-one greeted her, and all turned away at the sighting of their little group. Once they had reached the gates of the castle, Sir Timothy came to great them at the gate, and Felicity hoped that he would tell them what ailed everyone. Yet as he approached, rather than clear the problem, he made it all the worse by informing the little convoy that they were not welcome in the province due to their rash actions.

“But…Sir Timothy! What ever have we done!?” asked Felicity quite distraught.

“Hast thou run so blind and far into thy offense that thou dost not even realize what it is at all!” he replied in horror.

“I am completely at a loss as to what it is that thou dost speak of, Sir Timothy! If I must go, please at least tell me what has come to pass to have me banished from my home!” she earnestly implored him.

“By my word, thou art one of the blindest of fools, if thou dost not know! Is not that there with thee the very man thou ran away and eloped wit, and yet thou dost try to deny it in front of the proof itself!” Upon saying this, he turned to leave and yelled back as he did so, “I have no more to say to thee except that thou art a terrible disgrace and disappointment to all of thy family and no-one will certainly have anything to do with thee after this!”

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“I am so sorry, Felicity! This is all my fault, and the doing of my mother!” said Kevin to the distraught maiden as they slowly rode away from what was previously her home for so many years.

“Don’t say that Kevin!” she replied calmly though tears ran down her checks. “It is not thy fault. Thou hast only been ever so kind to me, and for my family…it is just a misunderstanding that shall pass, I am sure…”

“How canst thou be so forgiving of so much pain and grief inflicted upon thee, which is so unjustly and falsely done, Felicity?” he asked her with surprise.

“Only through the grace of God, I am sure, though I must admit that it nearly breaks my heart…” was her answer as she tried to smile.

For a few minutes there was a brief pause and then Kevin asked her, “Where dost thou wish to go now?”

“I think that perhaps the only place open to me at this point is Franz and Angelica’s…” she replied after thinking for a minute. “Perhaps if we go and stay there for a bit and give everyone time; all of this misconstruing may be repaired.”

“That is a good idea! Why did I not think of it before!” he exclaimed, happy that there was at least some prospective solution to their problems. Then smiling and looking on the bright side of life again he smiled and added, “Time indeed heals many wounds.”

“Indeed, Kevin! That is very true!” replied Felicity also smiling again. “And even if our families do not relent, at least we have a place to reside until we should come up with another plan of action and decide what else can or should be done!”

“Well, to Franz and Angelica’s then?” he put in, smiling almost teasingly.

“Yes! Home to our dear cousins!” she answered smiling back to him as she rode off in the direction of their new destination.



CHAPTER 2 - A KIND WELCOME

Sir Kevin and Lady Felicity knew not what sort of welcome they would receive upon arriving at the home of their cousins. Perhaps they would be allowed to stay, but what if they were refused residence? What then would they do?

Many such questions presented themselves into the minds of the weary travelers, but they did not let their souls become disturbed by them. They knew that everything was in the hands of God and that; therefore, whatever happened to them would be in their best interest. Yes, they might not understand presently why such pain was inflicted upon them, but certainly within a few or several years, the purpose of God allowing such torments would certainly become clear to them.

As the little group rode up to the castle, Lord Franz and Lady Angelica rode out to meet them. Fear shook the hearts of the little group, and their souls trembled at what sort of greeting they might receive. They certainly were not expecting was took place next.

Lord Franz and his wife, upon reaching the convoy, both dismounted from their steeds and kneeling on the ground made an earnest plea to sir Kevin and Lady Felicity:

“Please forgive our relatives for their terrible cruelty towards thee, and do not hold us at all accountable for it!” Lady Angelica besought the two.

“I am sure that it is the devil working to tempt thee and cause thee trouble!” declared Lord Franz most sincerely adding, “Thou art both welcome to reside here with us for as long as God should allow this test to remain with thee!”

Kevin and Felicity has both dismounted by this time, and approaching their cousins gently motioned to them to rise up from their positions on the ground.

Kevin spoke first saying, “It certainly was no fault of either of thee that we have been spurned and treated as we have.” As he finished he looked over to Felicity to confirm his words.

“Indeed!” she chipped in. “Of all the persons whom we know, thou hast always been the most kind and hospitable towards us! If any should be kneeling, it should be we to thee!”

As Felicity finished speaking thus, Angelica went over to her cousin and offered her a large hug. Then she asked delightfully, “Then thou shalt stay with us?”

“Yes, we certainly shall!” replied Kevin smiling and bestowing a brotherly embrace to Franz. The latter burst out laughing as his cousin nearly squeezed him so hard that he felt as if he was going to pop!

“All right! All right!” exclaimed the master of the land, still laughing almost uncontrollably. “Get thee inside before we change our minds!”

They all burst out laughing at Lord Franz’s sort of embarrassed exclamation, and grabbing their horses they all jollily talked as they walked back to the castle.



CHAPTER 3 - AN UNEXPECTED LETTER

It was not long before Kevin and Felicity had settled quite comfortably at their cousins’ home. Felicity took to helping again in the kitchen, and Kevin employed himself by helping tend the grounds and teaching fencing to many a young page. All seemed quite well, and everyone appeared to be very content with their lot in life. Lord Franz was grateful for Kevin’s diligent and knowledgeable help, and Lady Angelica could not express enough her gratitude to Felicity for making all the servants and household duties run smoothly. Sir Kevin and Lady Felicity had plenty to keep them occupied, and they found it a blessing to be appreciated and loved because of what they were willing to do for others.

Kevin and Felicity had begun to be very attached to each other, enjoyed each others company very much, and both were convinced that God wished for them to be a couple. Everything else in their lives seemed to be going quite well, and there seemed to be nothing that they could possibly complain of. Yet, God does not often allow those whom He loves to rest in peace for long…

“Sir Kevin!” exclaimed his ever-faithful servant John Antony, running up to him.

“What is it, John?” he asked. Kevin had been contemplating a garden that greatly needed a make-over, and the intrusion was not greatly appreciated. Yet, he managed to keep calm and friendly, thinking to himself that it must be important. He had just told John a several minutes ago that he was not to be disturbed, and John was quite good about doing what he was told.

“Please forgive my intrusion, sir,” he started. “I know that thou didst not wish to be disturbed, but an urgent letter has just come for thee from thy mother. I though that thou wouldst wish to know as soon as possible.”

“A letter from my mother!?” he gasped in surprise. His mother never wrote him letters, and after what had recently taken place, such a thing was all the less expected.

“Many thanks, John.” He answered, collecting himself as best he could. Taking the note he smiled and said added, “Please leave me now.”

He waited until his faithful servant was gone. Then, saying first a prayer that the contents might not be too horrendous if it please God, he opened the letter. It read as follows:

My Dear Son,

I am so sorry for my recent outburst against thee! Please forgive me and come home! I have not been so well of late, and the doctors tell me that I may not have long to live. I wish to make everything up to thee before I pass away, and set our estate right so that all may easily transfer to thee once I am dead.

I must request however that thou shouldst not bring that silly girl back with thee, and give up any thought of marrying her anymore. She is too much below thy age and rank. Her parents were not born into nobility as our family, and she does not even act as a lady should! Her attitude is not like the sort of woman I wish for thee to marry, and I am sure that once thou hast escaped her grips, thou shalt find a much more suitable wife. Please do forget her, for my sake, and come home soon!

Thy Loving Mother,

Lady Gertrude Nigel

Sir Kevin was made very distraught by his mother’s letter. He was touched by her tender words for him, yet how could she speak of Felicity thus!? Especially after all that she had done to take care of her! Yes, she was much his junior in age, yet she had the wisdom, knowledge, and bearing of one much older. Perhaps her parents were not born nobles, but did not that mean that her father must have been a very hard-working and diligent man!?

As to her attitude and bearing… Yes, se was not the sort of woman who wore bundles of jewelry and fine silks. Yet, would a white lily look any more beautiful for being coated in gold? On the contrary! Such would utterly destroy its sublime purity and the sense of its rare character! In a similar way, Felicity was unlike any woman whom he had ever known! Her very presence brought him peace and joy. The sound of her voice could cure him instantly of any pain, grief, or anger. To have her act like other woman would take away the special qualities that made her so exceptional and extraordinary.

Kevin had never thought that he would be able to love any woman as he now realized that he loved Felicity. Ten years before he had ardently tried courting many a number of ladies, but he never seemed to care enough for any of them. As a result of this he had concluded that he was not meant for the married life; however, one he met Felicity that all had changed. Upon meeting her on the road that very first night, he had been ever drawn to her. The longer he knew her the more he became convinced that God had sent her into his life to be his wife.

What words can explain the confusion and turmoil that now tore at his heart? The choice seemed to lie before him: to give up his mother or his faithful lover. What ever should he do? What was God asking of him?

He fell upon his knees and looking up to heaven with tears in his eyes, he implored God to help him to know what he should do. Bowing his head silently and closing his eyes for a minute, he listened and heard the sound of a mourning done. Opening his eyes, he looked up again into the sky, and instantly knew what he must do. He must go to his mother and leave Felicity. If his mother should die without his having made up with her, he would never be able to forgive himself…



CHAPTER 4 - A PARTING OF WAYS

Rising up, Sir Kevin took himself to the kitchen, where he knew that Felicity would be over-seeing the preparations for dinner. He paused for a minute in the doorway to watch her joyfully glide through the room, spreading smiles and orders wherever she went. Tears started to form in his eyes, but before he could wipe them away and hide his distress, his lady caught his glance. Furrowing her brow, she motioned to Adelia to take over, and walked to Kevin. Putting her left arm into his right, she pulled him out of the kitchen doorway through to a little garden nearby. Sorrow gripped her hear to see him so distressed. He never came to see her during the middle of the day, so something must really be bothering him.

“What’s wrong, Kevin?” besought Felicity earnestly as they sat down on a little bench next to each other.

“Oh, Felicity!” he sighed deeply, and a tear rolled down his cheek despite his efforts to keep it from doing so. “I received an urgent letter from my mother today…”

“Thy mother?” she questioned, quite a bit puzzled.

“Yes…” he answered. “She asked my forgiveness for her recent unkindness towards me, and told me that she wishes for me to return home.”

“That is great news, Kevin!” exclaimed the little maiden gleefully, but upon watching him shake his head her face became somber and she asked, “Did thy mother write something else that disturbed thee?”

“Felicity…” he began. Sighing and taking a big breath he continued, looking deeply into her eyes, “My mother basically has said that my returning depends on my leaving thee behind and having our friendship end.”

Felicity started to speak, but Kevin raised his hand saying almost desperately, “Please let me finish…”

“Yes, of course, Kevin…” she meekly and empathetically replied.

Kevin, taking her hands in his, went on to say, “From the time I first met thee I was very drawn to thee. For many years any thought of marriage has been the furthest thing from my mind, but when I met thee that all changed. I found myself wondering if God might have brought us into each others lives to be partners for life. The more time passed, the more I became surely convinced that we were meant to be married, and hence I finally asked thee to be my wife. Just now though, when I read my mother’s letter, I came to understand that such is not the will of God for us. God wishes for me to care for my mother in her old age.”

Pausing a minute to catch his breath, he then continued, “So we must now part and forget each other… We must go each our own separate ways, and perhaps one day soon God may send to thee someone who He does deem worthy and ordained for thee…”

Upon completing his dissertation, Kevin kissed Felicity’s hand and declared, “May God bless thee for thy kindness and love whilst we have been friends!”

“Oh Kevin!” exclaimed Felicity. She was shaking from head to toe, and Kevin held her tightly trying to soothe her. Tears which had been suppressed finally arrested themselves from her eyes and streamed down her cheeks. No longer was she able either to check the sobs that then broke forth uncontrollably from the depths of her soul.

After a few minutes she managed to compose herself and reply to him, though still a bit shakily, “Kevin… I believe that it is the will of God that thou shouldst return to thy mother and leave me behind. Perhaps one may be able to be friends again-if God should will it… And since thou hast spoken thy heart to me, I shall in turn open mine to thee… Thou hast touched my heart as no other man has ever done, and never before had I so seriously considered marriage…”

Pausing a second she went on speaking, “However, I agree that it is not God’s will, at least for the present that we continue to contemplate such. Our Dearest Lord has some special plan for us both, but only time will tell exactly what that is… And know that no matter what happens, thou shalt always have a special place in the depths of my heart…”

One last farewell embrace and a “May God be with thee!” ended that heart wrenching conversation, and two souls bound together parted, in the knowledge that they might never meet again in this life.



CHAPTER 5 - THE RETURN OF DEMITRI

Several months later, to all outward appearances, Felicity appeared to have forgotten about Kevin. She seemed to be her normal cheerful self, spreading joy and peace where ever she went. Yet, looks can be deceiving. Not one day passed when she did not think of her former friend. She often prayed to God that He at least watch over Kevin, since she could not. When alone tears would often fill her eyes at the thought of him, yet she knew in her heart that God had to have a good reason for taking him away from her.

Once again Felicity’s closest friend left her life completely. Life became very difficult for her when this took place, especially all the more because Kevin had been such a good and dear friend! He had been so simple and straightforward, yet also so wise, jolly, and noble! She at least had to console her that he had never lied to her, and always had told her the truth. It was not his fault that they were separated, and he had loved her at one point… Regardless of what happened in the future, she would never forget that!

About nine months after their separation, something occurred to bring quite a dramatic distraction into Felicity’s life. Her old friend, Demitri Gonzaga, was returning from war, and he had sent a letter asking her to allow him to see her! Despite the pain that still lingered in her heart from his prior conduct towards her, she could not return the slightest sign of revenge. Felicity therefore kindly wrote back to him telling him that he was most welcome to visit.

Felicity was very nervous about seeing Demitri, but tried her best not to show it. When he arrived she smiled and kindly offered, “Wilt thou join me for a stroll in the garden?”

“Indeed, I should like that very much.” He responded, smiling in return.

They walked for a couple minutes in silence when Demitri stopped to pick a little white lily of the valley. He offered it to Felicity saying while he carefully watched her face, “Dost thou remember a few years ago when thou made the attempt to explain to me the importance of innocence, purity, and good companions?

Felicity stopped to take the flower and looking up into his face declared, as tears started to form in her eyes, “I do remember…as if it was yesterday…”

Demitri could wait no longer for what he had come to say and falling upon his knees and earnestly implored, “Dear Felicity! Thou hast always been the best and most faithful of friends! Canst thou ever forgive me for my cruelty and insolence towards thee?”

Pulling him up from the ground, and giving him a big hug, she sincerely replied, “I forgave thee years ago… From the very moment thou cause me the pain and grief…”

Now it was Demitri’s turn to have tears fill his eyes, at the mercy and benevolence of this lady, whom he had so cruelly insulted and rudely ignored. He put his arm in hers and pulled her over to a bench to sit down. He then asked of her, “How is it that thou canst so easily have forgiven me?”

Becoming more her normal self, Felicity smiled and said, “Do we not ask in “Our Lord’s Prayer” to be forgiven “as we forgive those who trespass against us”? I certainly wish for God to forgive me my faults, so how could I ever afford to begin to hold a grudge against anyone?”

Pausing a moment, she laughed and continued, “Besides, I have found that once I love someone I always continue to do so no matter how hard I try not to!”

May God bless thee for thy gracious kindness and mercy!” Demitri declared.

Felicity replied, “Anything I am, I am through the grace of God...”

“Yes.” said the knight, “But not everyone responds to the graces given to them…like my actions these past few years…”

Stopping to catch his breath he continued, “I am sure that it was only by thy prayers that I was given the grace to have a second chance to give up my desperate and evil ways. For that I can never thank thee enough!”

“Yes, thou canst!” she chuckled. “Let us start by forgetting the past, and stop making me blush as red as a tomato!”

Demitri threw back his head in laughter at the thought and then offering her his hand asked, “So we are friends again?”

“Yes! Friends again!” she replied smiling and giving him her hand.

Felicity then inquired curiously, “Tell me though… What triggered this sudden change in thee?”

“Well, it all happened like this…” he began. “We had finished our last battle, and all of us soldiers had taken to drink, as a manner of celebration. One by one all of my companions fell asleep, but I could not. Something kept me from being able to rest, so I went for a walk around the city, where we were then residing. It was nearly midnight by the time that I came upon a Catholic Chapel. I could not remember the last time that I had prayed, and I though to myself, ‘Maybe if I go inside and say a prayer, God will finally let me sleep!’ So that is what I did. Before I knew it I was sleeping; however, it was no restful respite in which I partook, for I experienced the most terrible nightmare! In it thou wast being burnt alive by devils – though it did not cause thee to die. I remember being extremely shocked and looking upon thy face I came to understand that all thou suffered was because of me! Thou had taken my sins upon thy shoulders so that I would not be lost to hell for all eternity!”

He briefly paused and then continued, “Upon waking, I saw before me a priest, and falling on my knee, I implored him to hear my confession. He did as I asked, and as penance he bid me make a pilgrimage to the Mont San Miguel. After completing my penance, I knew also in my heart that I must come to see thee and beg thy forgiveness, and here I am now.”

As he finished, Demitri bowed his head, still grieving the pain that he had caused Felicity, but she would have none of that. He raised his head and declared, “Remember the past only to prevent thee from doing thus again. All the more though, praise God for His goodness and mercy! He has been very good to thee, and to me by allowing that I should see thy conversion!”

“Indeed He has been good!” Demitri confirmed smiling.



CHAPTER 6 - A WEDDING

Within a year, news spread abroad that there was to be a wedding at the castle of Lord Franz and Lady Angelica. Few were more delighted than Felicity when Demitri announced his betrothalment to Amy Margarite, Felicity’s faithful helper and companion ever since she and Kevin left Castle Rosenberg. The little maid had been her mistress’ primary comfort since Sir Kevin had suddenly left. Felicity knew that she would miss her little attendant terribly, but she was determined not to let herself think too much on the matter.

Amy Margarite and Demitri were such a perfect match! Amy was very young, beautiful, gracious, kind, and only thought of others. She was so patient that no-one could help but love her! She would be the perfect person to keep Demitri on track and keep him from going back to a bad life. He in turn would be very protective of her, and never let anyone harm her or disturb her innocence.

Felicity would never have guessed a year ago that Demitri would have returned a better man, or that he would have become engaged to little Amy! But it was all done so perfectly! Surely God keeps the most diligent watch over those He loves, and gives them all they may need to live a good and happy life!

Finally the day for the wedding came. Felicity herself took charge of the preparations. Nothing could be too good for her dear friends, and their special day. She was determined to make it the most festive wedding ever!

Father Hildebrand attended by a server, who held in his hands a vessel of holy water, began the ceremony thus:

“Demitri Gonzaga, wilt thou take Amy Margarite here present for thy lawful wife, according to the Rite of our holy Mother the Church?”

The groom happily responded, “I will.”

Turning to the maiden, dressing in white, crowned with a wreath of white roses, the priest asked of her:

“Amy Margarite, wilt thou take Demitri Gonzaga, here present, for thy lawful husband, according to the Rite of our holy Mother the Church?”

She earnestly replied, “I will!”

Having received the consent of both parties, Father Hildebrand bid the couple join their right hands together. Then turning to Demitri, Father had the groom repeat after him:

“I Demitri Gonzaga take thee, Amy Margarite, for my lawful wife to have and to hold, from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, until death do us part.”

Then the bride similarly repeated the words of the priest, “I Amy Margarite take thee Demitri Gonzaga…”

Father Hildebrand then made the sign of the cross as he pronounced them man and wife in the ancient language of the common to the Church founded by Christ:

“Ego conjugo vos in matrimonium, in nomine Patris + et Filii, et Spiritus Sancti. Amen.”

Then took place: the normal blessing of the couple with holy water, the blessing and exchanging of rings, the Nuptial Benediction, and the Nuptial Mass, and tears of joy filled Felicity’s eyes to see her two closest friends so happily united for life. As the Mass was coming to a close, deep sorrow filled her heart at the thought that once again she would be saying farewell to a two persons so dear to her heart. She thought to herself “At least we are all parting on good terms! Thanks be to God for that!”

She suddenly felt very lonely, and without a purpose in life. Yet, she knew that God must have something planned for her. Perhaps it might be years, perhaps tomorrow that a new path and goal might be given to her for which to live. But what ever was she to do with herself before something presented itself?

Suddenly she stopped and laughed at herself. Here she was, a silly little creature, complaining of such a trifle when God Himself had suffered the cruelest of deaths as proof of how much He loved her, and always had her in His thoughts. So, why in the world was she worrying so much!

Kneeling down, after the groom and bride had left the chapel, Felicity made a petition to God, full of confidence in His love and mercy. “Dear Lord, please do not leave me forever in this limbo of darkness. Give me some purpose for which to live, and please do not have it be too long in coming. My heart has grown weary of sitting and accomplishing nothing of much consequence for Thee! Oh Lord, I implore Thee, through all Thy sufferings on the Cross, and all the grief of Thy mother at beholding Thee! Give me a reason for which to live; a task whereby I may more dutifully serve thee and give Thee Glory!”



CHAPTER 7 - A PLEA FOR HELP

It was nearly a month since the wedding and departure of Demitri and Amy that Felicity received a very unexpected letter, which left her quite shaken. It read as follows:

Dear Felicity,

I write on behalf of my mother. She unceasingly beseeches me to entreat thee to come to her. The doctors have nearly despaired of her recovering from a recent illness, which she had protracted. She ceases not to profess that if thou shouldst come to care for her that she is bound to recover.

At first I was reluctant to write to thee, in the fear that she might not be with good intent and meant what she said in earnest. Yet, I am not very convinced that she not only wishes to have thy help, but that she seems to have miraculously taken a liking to thee for no apparent reason what so ever!

Please come if you can!

Sincerely,

Kevin

Tears streamed down from her eyes as she finished reading Kevin’s letter. She knew immediately that this was all the work of God. Who else could so deeply touch the heart of one so hardened against another and turn it into affection? Of course she would return to Castle Rosenberg and comfort her former enemy as best she could! It was certainly what God seemed to wish of her, and how very grateful she was to Our Lord to have some purpose and goal with which to live for!

A few days later Felicity arrived at Castle Rosenberg. Sir Kevin came out to greet her accompanied by Edward, who took her horse to the stables.

Kevin smiled warmly and said, “Welcome back to Castle Rosenberg, Felicity! May thy stay here now make up for thy last expulsion!”

Felicity returned the smile and responded, “Many thanks for the kind and gracious welcome!” Then after a short pause she asked, “How is thy mother?”

Kevin sighed and responded, “Not so well, I am afraid…” Then in a more optimistic voice declared, “But I think that she will be happy to know that thou hast come as she requested!”

The maiden looked sympathetically into Kevin’s eyes and furrowing her brow with concern asked, “Wilt thou please take me to see her right away then?”

“Surely” he responded. “Follow me.”

The two walked silently through many a corridor until they reached the quarters of Lady Gertrude Nigel. As they entered her room, the old lady looked up and her whole countenance changed. She immediately looked ten years younger, and dispatching those who attended her, motion for Felicity to approach.

Kevin also started to come forward, but his mother told him most sharply, “Leave us!”

Felicity looked back to Kevin, unsure of how to react to such a change of attitude in his mother towards her and also him. His glance caught hers, and she saw great pain in his eyes. She longed to go to him and comfort him, but she knew that then was not the proper time or place. So, she watched silently as he meekly and humbly bowed, excusing himself from the room.

After he had left, his mother spoke to her saying, “Come close to me, my child.”

Felicity felt great repugnance towards her for her recent coldness to Kevin, but overcoming her feelings, she forced her will to act instead as she knew was best. She approached the mistress of the homestead and said, “I have come to thee as thou hast asked. Pray tell me what then dost thou wish of me, and why hast thou called me hither.”

“Well,” began Lady Nigel. “Nearly two months ago I was as well as could be, yet suddenly I came down with the most terrible fever and illness. Every night I had the most horrifying nightmare, and every night afterwards I lost more and more of my strength.”

“A nightmare repeated over and over again?” questioned the young lady curiously.

“Yes!” exclaimed the old woman, bending forward with excitement. “It was like this every time: In the dream I would find myself in a dark and dismal place, wandering about, trying to find my way out. Eventually I would sit down and give up trying. Then a lady in shinning garments always would come out of no-where and offer to help lead me out of the darkness. I would always retort, “Who art thou that I should trust thee?” Then shaking her head sadly she would disappear as mysteriously as she had come. Almost instantly a legion of demons would come and surround me and start dragging me towards a pit of fire and brimstone. I would cry out every time over and over again, but no-one seemed to hear me. Just before I was there to that horrid hell of a place, I would awake and find myself safe in my bed!”

“That is horrible!” put in Felicity. “Is that all then?”

“No…It is not…” the old lady said. Then she continued to explain, “One night, about a month ago, I managed in my dream to take the kind offer of the shinning lady in my dream to help me escape the darkness. Immediately I was taken back from that sort of limbo to earth and I saw before me a young lady besides the lady in shinning garments, who stood next to me. The former saw neither of us, but knelt in a chapel praying. A wedding had just taken place, but I could see tears coming down her cheek, as she implored God to have pity on my soul. Then the lady next to me told me, “This is Lady Felicity, who thou hast before so cruelly wronged. It is through her prayers and sacrifices that thou hast not already been cast into the fiery pits of hell! She has obtained for thee the grace to have a second chance to amend thy life. Call her too thee and do whatever she shouldst advise thee to do. Then it may be that God will spare thee, bring thee back to health, and restore peace unto thy soul.”

“So… That is why thou hast called me here?” Felicity questioned.

“Yes, indeed!” the Lady Nigel exclaimed delightfully. “Now tell me… What must I do?”

“Well, for the present thou must rest.” responded the young maiden. “I shall light an aromatic candle that I have brought with me which should help relax thee and help thee sleep better. Then I shall return in the morning to discuss more if thou shouldst like it.”

“Indeed!” responded Lady Gertrude. “Many thanks to thee!”

From that night on, Sir Kevin’s mother’s health started to repair, her attitude became more cheerful, her words less strict and bitter. Over all she became a very different person. Felicity helped bring order and structure into Lady Nigel’s life. Meals were always at 6 am, noon, and 6 pm. Morning prayers took place at 5:30 am, and evening prayers at 7:30 pm and so forth. The servants actually began to enjoy the company of their mistress because se had become so sweet, calm and kind. They even sort of even fought over who might serve her night by night.



CHAPTER 8 - LEAVING ONCE AGAIN

The reader might be wandering at this point what had become of the friendship between Sir Kevin and Lady Felicity. Had this new turn caused their friendship to re-blossom, or tear them father apart? Did then speak often together, and enjoy each others company as before? It so happens that when friendship and love are mixed together between and gentleman and a lady there can often is much confusion and misunderstanding. That is how it was with Kevin and Felicity.

Sir Kevin was afraid to approach Felicity to speak to her much lest he cause tension with his mother. He still deeply loved Felicity, but was sure that she could not possibly love him anymore. He assumed that after what he had previously told her at their last meeting, she would never give him another thought or second chance.

For her part, Felicity constantly remembered how Kevin had said that they were not meant for each other, and this did make her keep more distant from him. Not because she only wanted to be friends with someone who might want to marry her, but because she was still so very deeply attached to him, and she was worried of what she might say or do by mistake when before him. Merely being in his presence made her love him all the more dearly, and being convinced because of his former words, that he would never return that love; she silently kept aloof.

It was a terrible cross for Felicity to keep sp distant from Kevin whilst living on the same estate, but she knew that she had no other choice. As a lady it would have been unseemingly to even speak the subject of marriage or anything of the sort with a man, unless he first broached the matter. In those days women were expected to be silent about the secrets of their hearts unless asked, and only then were they allowed to speak their minds. Thus, even if she might have thought that Kevin might possibly admire and respect her, it was not up to her to make the first move.

The trial of living so close yet so distant finally began to pay its toll, and Felicity determined that she must leave as soon as Kevin’s mother was fully up and able again. A grand ball had been arranged for Easter, and she decided that after making an appearance that she would pack and leave for good. Besides, she did not like huge crowds anyhow. They overwhelmed her and made her exhausted. Thus her plans seemed to fit squarely in her head, and the day of her departure drew near.

Finally it was Easter! Everyone was so happy to be able to be free from fasting, and the whole castle was in a bustle preparing for the festivities and feasting. Felicity did what she could to help, but for once in her life, the more she tried to work the worse she felt. She was so tormented at the thought that she must leave that no distraction seemed to soothe her aching soul. Going to her quarters she laid down on her bed with her hands behind her head. She could no longer check her tears, and they began to stream down her face. She knew that she had no choice but to leave, yet it was still very difficult for her to bear the thought that she must so soon depart.

Suddenly there was a knock on the door, and a voice inquired, “Felicity? Art thou in here?”

Wiping her eyes as best she could, Felicity went to the door to open it saying, “Yes?” Seeing that it was Kevin’s mother, she tried her best to remain collected, but the older woman was not blind and could easily detect that she had been crying.

Coming into the room, Lady Gertrude sat Felicity next to her on a little sofa by a window viewing over the castle gardens. “What ever is the matter, dear?” she asked most earnestly. “I have never see tears in thy eyes… What or whom hast caused this grief in thy heart?”

Not able to restrain herself any longer, Felicity broke forth into sobs. She tried to speak but the only words that staggeringly made their way out were, “It is…Kevin…I must leave…tonight…”

“What ever hast he done to thee?” inquired the mother in a horrified voice. “If he hast dared to say or do anything to hurt thee, do tell me and I will set him aright!”

“No…” Felicity managed to say, trying her very best to calm herself enough to speak, “Kevin has always been very good and kind to me…”

“What dost thou mean then to say that thou must leave tonight because of him?” asked the puzzled old lady, taking Felicity’s hands in hers.

Turing away Felicity replied, “I am afraid that my telling thee shouldst make thee upset and angry with me, but I assure thee that thy son has done absolutely nothing wrong.”

“Felicity…” said Lady Nigel in a very persistent voice. “I must know what is troubling thee! I shall promise not to become upset, if that will make thee more at ease… Besides, how could I ever be angry with thee after all thou hast done to so kindly and generously assist me?”

After a pause of silence, the young lay slowly said, “Very well, I shall tell thee what troubles me… I guess that it does not really matter anyhow, as I shall be leaving here so very soon, never to return…”

Sighing she continued, “In short, it is this… I am very attached to thy son, Kevin, but he does not seem to feel likewise towards me. I have been constantly tormented by this ever since I arrived here to help thee. I have borne it as long as I could for thy sake and benefit; however, I can not longer tolerate the pain of being so close yet so distant any longer. So, I must leave in order to retain my sanity and not make a scene.

She burst into tears as she finished, having finally confided to earthly ears the agony of her soul. Lady Gertrude pulled the girl to her, trying to comfort her saying, “There, there, dear! Do not distress thyself thus! It may still be that my son loves thee, but is just not ready to say so…”

“But it that was truly the case, why would he keep so distant from me?” she whimpered.

“Now…” said the old lady. “I do not mean to sound harsh, but thou hast not really given him any encouragement either. In fact, I think that I can easily say that thou hast been as distant towards him as he has been to thee!”

“But I had no choice…” the young lady began.

“Thou didst indeed!” corrected Lady Nigel. Then she kindly explained, “I do not blame thee for being timid and frightened…but… Did it never occur to thee that perhaps the very reason why Kevin kept his distance from thee was because he might have thought that thou didst no longer love him?”

Felicity looked up into the old lady’s face and thoughtfully replied, “I had not considered that…” Then trembling she asked, “Dost thou truly think it possible?”

“Indeed, I do!” proclaimed Lady Gertrude most emphatically. Adding encouraging she said, “Now whilst thou stay at least a little longer with us, and not depart until the ball is completely over?”

“Yes! I shall!” exclaimed the maiden, giving her hostess a big hug. “How can I ever thank thee enough?”

“By staying!” the older lady teased. “Now go and prepare thyself! The guests shall start arriving very soon!”

As she started to leave the room, Lady Nigel turned back and added, “Oh, and by the way… Thy family is to be joining us tonight!”

Felicity’s face brightened up, and she declared, “What hast thou not thought of?”

The elderly woman smiled and left the young lady to puzzle all these new thoughts in her head. Her family coming here! Kevin might possibly still lover her! Falling on her knees, she implored God’s forgiveness for not trusting in Him as she ought to have. Then thanking Him for His goodness and mercy, she started to prepare herself for the evenings festivities.



CHAPTER 9 - BETWEEN MOTHER AND SON

Only an hour before Lady Nigel had come to see Felicity, she had finished a very profound conversation with her son. It had taken place as follows…

Kevin was indeed still very attached to Felicity, but he had been afraid to speak up lest he lose her once again completely. He was anxious that his mother might stand between them, but all the more; he feared that his little lady no longer even sought to be his friend. She always kept at a distance, hardly ever spoke to him unless absolutely necessary, and seemed to not encourage him in the slightest. He was convinced that his former words to her had hardened her heart to him forever.

On the day of the ball many old memories of their first meeting at Franz and Angelica’s rushed back into his head. Tears came to his eyes he wondered, “Why ever did it not work out for us? We had been so perfect for each other…” Then thinking of how shy and docile Felicity had been even the, a thought suddenly struck him as lightening strikes a tree. “What if she does still love me, but is just too shy and afraid to say or show any sign of such?” The more he thought on the matter, the more he was certain that such was the truth. He stopped to think of how, even though she did not speak much to him, there was always a deep look in her eyes which he could never penetrate. Now, he was almost certain that it was that she loved him, but that she thought that he did not care for her. How ever could he have been so blind! How ever could he have imagined that she might suddenly profess to him that she loved him, without his first asking her!”

He was afraid to act upon a whim though. So, gathering his courage, he decided to go to his mother and ask her opinion on the matter. He and she had become closer of late, and he often asked her advice, but on the subject of Felicity nothing had even been spoken since her arrival. He had always been afraid that it would cause old wounds to re-open, and he did not want to be the starter of any unnecessary problems.

Coming to his mother’s parlor, he found her reclined on a couch, reading a book about the 3 Wise Kings. Looking up from where she sat, his mother worriedly asked him, “Is something the matter?”

“No, mother.” he responded, pulling up a seat next to her. “I wish to confide in thee and ask thy advice.”

“Yes?” she questioned. “What is it that thou shouldst wish to speak with me about?”

Taking a big breath he declared, “It is Felicity.”

“Felicity?” she inquired, almost desperately. “What ever has she done? I hope that thou dost not wish for me to send her away from me! She is my greatest joy and comfort!”

“Quite the contrary, mother…” he started. Taking her hands in his and looking earnestly into her face he professed, “Mother… I have always loved and respected Felicity from the first moment I met her. I am sure that I did not understand then that I did, but I am sure now that was the case. Then a few years ago, she had promised to be my wife, yet I broke off our engagements at thy request…”

“Oh, my son!” the elderly lady sorrowfully exclaimed. “Dost thou mean to tell me that thou still dost wish Felicity to be thy wife, and that it is partially because of my hardness of heart that thou hast not already approached her on the matter?”

Bowing his head and sighing, he replied, “I do not mean to sound harsh, but in many ways that is the long and short of it…”

“May God forgive me!” she cried out. “How could I ever have been so blind? Why did I not realize this before?”

“It is all right, mother.” Kevin put in. “Thou wast ill and not thyself before... But tell me… May I have thy blessing to speak to her, or art thou still against our being a couple?”

“My blessing?” asked the lady. “Of course thou hast it! Never before have I loved a girl as I do thy Felicity! Many times I have wished in my heart that I had been blessed with a daughter such as she is, and to think that it may still be possible if thou shouldst marry her!”

Kissing his hand she told him, “Tonight her parents and cousins shall come to the ball. Speak to her father, and if he should give thee his consent; leave no time in letting thy heart known to her!”

“Praise be to God!” proclaimed Kevin, and embracing his mother joyfully left the room, his head all the while swimming with hope.



CHAPTER 10 – A MUTUAL AGREEMENT

Many various guests came to the party that night from a number of different countries and cities. Upon the arrival of Lord Harold and Lady Pamela (Felicity’s parents) Felicity could hardly restrain her joy! How good it was to see her parents again after having been parted from them for so long! What happiness filled her heart to think that they no longer felt enmity towards her, and that they showed her true parental affection!

Sir Kevin was also eager to meet Felicity’s parents, for a couple of reasons. First, he had never actually met them, due to Lady Pamela’s previous outrage. Secondly, he was more than ready to speak with Lord Harold and ask permission from him to marry his daughter. Upon arriving, Lady Pamela almost instantaneously pulled Felicity aside to inquire how she had been, what she had done recently, and to hear what ever other news her daughter could give her. Kevin, seeing that Lord Harold stood there a bit like a fish out of water, invited him to tour the gardens with him. The older man gratefully accepted, and the two walked out of the castle into the paths flowering patches of joy. All of spring seemed to be blossoming, and the day was as gorgeous as it ever could have been. What a picturesque day it was to make an offer of marriage!

Kevin pointed out to Lord Harold many a bird and plant particular only to their gardens and country. Lord Harold was delighted to find him interested in such things, for he also was. In fact, it was from him that Felicity had learned of and acquired her love of nature.

On their way back to the ballroom, Kevin tried many times to find a way to broach the subject of matrimony with Felicity’s father, but to no avail. He had almost given up hope, as they were nearing the homestead, when Lord Harold suddenly stopped, looked Kevin squarely in the face and asked, “May I ask whether thou dost still love my daughter?”

Kevin was certainly very taken aback by such a question, but collecting himself replied “Yes, sir. I do.”

“And if I was to give thee my blessing now, after all this time of having been against thee, wouldst thou ask her to marry thee?” the father furthermore inquired.

“Indeed, I should, sir!” the younger man exclaimed. “But wouldst thou believe that I was just not trying to find the words to ask thee such myself, before though didst bring the matter up thyself!”

Laughing, Lord Harold declared: “Us old people are not as blind as thou might think! I saw how, when thou wast not looking, how my daughter seemed to ponder thee over in her mind, and how, as she walked away with my wife, thou didst watch her.”

“Is it really that obvious, then?” asked Kevin in surprise.

“Very apparent…” replied the older man laughing as he finished his joke. “Only a-parent would see it.”

Kevin laughed in turn and asked, “Dost that mean then that thou dost think that Felicity still holds a place for me in her heart, and that thou dost five thy consent, if she should agree to be my wife?

“Indeed, that is exactly what I was saying!” replied the old man teasingly. Then pointing over to the right he declared, “There she is now with my wife! Let us go join them, and I shall, upon excusing myself and my darling, shall leave Felicity to thee!”

Kevin would not help but laugh at Lord Harold’s light and jolly words, nor was he inclined to argue with the suggestion given to him. Thus it was that, within a few minutes, Kevin and Felicity found themselves walking together amidst the gardens, for the first time in ever so long!

An awkward silence ensued at first as the two walked along. Kevin broke it by saying, “I can not tell thee how happy I am that thy parents came to join us this evening! I find thy father quite kind, courteous, witty, and thoughtful of others! I like him ever so much!”

“Many thanks, Kevin.” she responded. “I do love my father very much, and I am glad to know that you like him! He is one out of two men whose every word and action I fully admire and respect.”

“One out of two men?” he asked out loud, thinking all the while to himself, “Could she possibly mean me for the other?”

Realizing what she had let slip, Felicity smiled and merely replied, “Yes.”

They walked on again in silence until Felicity picked a yellow primrose, and handing it to him said, “Look Kevin! Thy favorite flower has come out just in time for Easter!”

Kevin took the little flower into his hand and memories flashed back to a time when he had told her of its specialty to him. He had told her at that time, “As this flower is to me, so also thou art – except that thy beauty and sweetness shall never fade in my eyes!”

Coming back to reality, Kevin realized that he had discontinued walking, while she had continued on. She had stopped by a little patch of azaleas bending over to smell them. He watched her for a minute, still in a daze that she had remembered his favorite flower after all of this time. Suddenly he knew that now was the ideal time for him to speak of his heart to her. He must know for sure whether she did or did not love him, and he could wait no longer.

Waking up to where she stood, he knelt next to her. She turned to make a comment about the azaleas, but was struck silent by his posture. Grasping her hand in his he tried his best to calmly and collectedly speak his thoughts, “Felicity, I ask thee once and for all… Wilt thou be my wife? If thou shouldst not wish it to be, or find the slightest offense by my speaking thus, I shall never trouble thee on this matter again. Yet, it thou dost truly love me also, thou shalt make me the happiest man in the world by accepting my proposal!”

Pulling Kevin to his feet, Felicity smiled and embracing him replied, “I most gladly consent to be thy wife!” Then laughing she declared, “Come, let us inform our families!”

The two walked back arm in arm, full of joy. Great gratitude to God filled their hearts for His working everything out so well. They were convinced that only He could have arranged everything so perfectly! Everyone had made up, everyone was at peace, and everyone was happy!

Kevin and Felicity would never forget what they had suffered during those years, yet they never regretted having gone through it. They remembered it always as a test of their loyalty to one another. It is rare that a couple has known so well before hand that their future spouse would be absolutely loyal to them no matter the cost. Yet, this was certainly known to Sir Kevin and Lady Felicity after all they had suffered for each other!

God rewarded them for their having persevered through such hard times, with many good and grateful children. They all grew up calling their parents good and blessed. Two of their daughters dedicated themselves to the service of their country-folk by working in hospitals, and one of their sons became a priest. The example of their parents kept them always on the right path, and reserved them from falling into evil ways. They learned to suffer joyfully whatever sufferings God allowed to fall upon them, and thus it was that peace, love, and joy always reigned into their hearts until the day when they were laid in their graves.

THE END